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...oh, and totally, the "doing-anything-for-a-girl" thing... I'm guilty of that and it's hard, because I know that she knows that she can walk all over me, be shitty to me, and be unloving and do whatever bullshit.. and I'd still take her back... within reason. If she did something TERRIBLE (and, honestly, I didn't reveal all the stuff she's done lately -- there are a few things that approach terrible), I dunno if I'd want to be with her. But right now, even through all this madness and chaos and drama, I still keep thinking about how I'll take her back in a heartbeat... even though she hasn't left me yet.
And she may not leave. We'll see. I mean, again, it's only been a little over a week. She has no real concept of how to accomplish the things that she wants to do and she changes her mind ALL THE TIME. This dude does message her cell phone a lot. I was paranoid and jealous at first, like I said, so she showed me the messages and admittingly they weren't anything bad, just kinda creepy and excessive. Also, I read his livejournal and he called her the girl of his dreams. A GIRL HE BARELY KNOWS. She thinks that's sweet but it also makes her uncomfortable. She can't separate good attention from negative attention. She hung out with some shitty, trashy, scummy drug dealer who just wanted to fuck her once. And she's totally opposite of that. But she just is so desparate for attention that she'll hang out with any idiot. (Luckily, I'm not an idiot! Or.. well.. that's questionable, considering all the shit I'm putting up with)
...I can't stop her from doing that, though... she'll find out everything for herself.
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