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Originally Posted by luxinterior

Except I can't do that. They wouldn't let me waste an entire semester at community college just because I don't want to go away to a university. The only way they'll help me out financially is if I do what they want. I won't even kid myself into thinking I could pay for it all on my own, there's just no way.

I just need to find a way to make it work out for me this time, so I don't go running away like a little girl.

heee heee, luxy, everyone has to grow up & face unknown crap & that can be tough. don't be embarrassed about running away "like a little girl". you probably were, at the time . i mean don't be hard on yourself, some people lose it while in college & you were smart enough to do a strategic retreat.

but seriously, there are other types of arrangements. like commuter schools and what not, you can live @ home & drive there. but maybe they don't have one near enough? in any case, you don't have to live in the shitty dorms. you can rent an apartment with roommates (a pain, i know) which will give you more privacy & freedom--if you pick the right roommates. being in the dorms for a year or two is nice until you find friends you want to move in with. but then you didn't like the dorms nor find decent friends. hm...

anyway.. a little crazy optimism sometimes can be a good thing because when things get tought it's the only thing that keeps you going... don't be afraid & think of what you'll gain. but then againt ponder your moves carefully so you don't find yourself in a bad situation you can't get out of. but there are infinite options, some you don't even know. maybe going to a small school rather than a large zoo would be the thing for you?

not trying to lure you or anything (ha ha), but here in new mexico they have this really cool school, not sure if the degree is good for anything but i sure love the curriculum:

http://www.stjohnscollege.edu/asp/home.aspx