[atsonicpark]

I hope no one thinks I'm anti-pot-legalization by my post. I quite like pot. It's helped me in my time of need -- as much as God has. Heheh.

I think pot should be legal, but you should only be able to smoke it in bars or in your house. I think you should be able to do ANYTHING in your house, really -- it's no one's business. At least in this town, the cops don't seem to worried about drugs. When I was a landlord and tried to kick that woman out, I let the police know that the woman who wasn't paying me was a big methhead and had people there all day. He said, "We know what she's doing in that house." ... got in his car ... and left. It's almost like cops know these people are destroying themselves, so they don't give a shit, unless it's, like, a rich methhead, who they know they can get money from. Besides, they'd already arrested the big fish, her husband.

That was the most trying, awful, difficult experience of my life. My aunt had died, left me a house, and this woman wouldn't pay because she was too busy doing meth. She sat in a freezing (it was the middle of December; 0 degrees out) and she sat there with no heat, no electricity, nothing.. all day long... smoking meth. Hadn't bathed in months. I had to pay $100 to have a warrant to get her kicked out, and it still took 3 months to get her kicked out completely. She had more rights than I had! When they FINALLY served papers on her, she destroyed everything in the house, selling the refrigerator, water heater, even copper wiring! Then, I had to go to court about 20 times, since she kept missing court dates, kept saying she didn't have to pay anything. This was 16 months ago; she had to pay $1610. But interest has kept building up -- naturally, she hasn't paid a dime -- so it's probably, who knows, $2500 now maybe? Probably more.

She'll have to pay it, or she won't be able to legally rent a house. Also, if she gets pulled over or whatever, she's going straight to jail. It's something that's going to have to haunt her the rest of her life....

...and me, too. My life was threatened at the time, by one of her tough-guy meth-head friends. In fact, she had many, many friends who looked and acted like zombies, but knew where I worked. I had tires slashed. I had a note left on my car. I went to the police about all this, and they acted like they couldn't care less.

It isn't over. It never will be.

So, what got me through? My faith. Not really my "religion"... not me being a "Christian"; moreso, my faith that there's more to this world than, well, this world. And because of recent events regarding my health and so on, I've realized that, eh, I die, I die. Fuck it. I'm kinda just ready for this TO end, finally.

There have been moments in my life where I've truly felt some kind of divine intervention... like, someone or somebody trying to tell me something.. going back to the "do you believe in ghosts?" thread, there has been some TRULY strange, unexplainable things that have happened to me... as I said then, also, we'rre not supposed to understand everything. Not everything in life makes sense.

So, I think I believe in God -- or something. Whatever is "out there", he's helped me get through some tough times. And I'm kinda excited to meet him.

So, fuck anyone that tries to insult me -- your opinion is no better or worse than mine. But I've had to fight for everything I've had, notihng has ever just been given to me, my family consists of me, my mom, and my grandpa. There's really nothing left for me out there. I could take the easy way out and call "god" an asshole, for taking everything away from me. That's probably what an "idiot" would do. But I truly feel there's more out there, something beautiful waiting for me on the other side. At least I hope so.