fuck it # 3
 

Audiences at concerts stare blankly at musicians playing instruments that resonate nothing... Everything is getting shitty. Too much fucking information. I think we're at a point where everything's kinda already been said -- also, it's SO EASY to say things now, with the technology we have. We're living in a reality that shouldn't exist; there wasn't a physical annihilation, just a spiritual one, right? An emptiness in existence, everyone in a panicked state of confusion, aggravation, uncertainity. Only people with a little bit of intelligence truly realize that but i think that it's kinda resonating in everyone whether they admit it or not. Everyone's trying to do something to fill that void in their lives, that emptiness that permeates, we try to recreate experiences because actual human emotions and interesting, new experiences are all DEAD. Art is dead. Remakes of sequels of remakes of variations on the same bullshit theme that is a homage to a corpse of the 70's. Truly original and interesting experineces don't happen, we're simply trying to copy them. I like the internet, but you know what? It's turning us into fucking zombies. I see more and more people on the internet, more and more, 24/7, we're eventually going to just live online. The people truly trying to do something original are ignored because people gravitate towards simplistic, established, dull bullshit. Look at a band like Wavves. I like them a lot, but really, people have been writing songs like that for so many fucking years, the same shit has been said before, it's not some "new thing", it's the old thing repackaged just like everything!... Then again, just the idea that people are still making good songs at all, no matter how simplistic and easy to "get" makes me happy in a way. Contradictory? I don't know. I'm just as confused as everyone else about all this. I truely feel like I'm at a point in my life where I can barely relate to anyone on anything, like the things I'm interested in are only things that interest a small handful of people. Most people I know just want remakes of great experiences that other, more interesting people had 40 years ago it all seems so foreign to me. It all seems so foreign to me... well, this young generation isn't accustomed to anything else. Maybe they can't differentiate sometimes. I dunno. I dunno what I'm saying. I think I just feel completely disconnected from most people, their motivations and their actions and so on. I'm not blaming anyone, I just wonder why I'm so different.

i know what you mean man (and not just so that i'm one of those "intelligent people" haha)

the only thing is I take a bit more of an optimistic look on it. sounds a bit silly given how miserable it all sounds but you gotta take inspiration from it, no matter how minute it is. to go with a totally overused phrase:
"life is what you make of it"
completely cliched but nonetheless completely true. if it's going to get you down, then don't. there's just a side to it all you haven't seen yet.

Autechre still excites me at least!

dude that graveyard picture is rad

there are a handful of really exciting bands out there making music these days.

but i fucking hate it when people just stand there. DO SOMETHING!

i feel like, hey, i paid to enjoy this band so i'm going to jump around and dance my ass off, you know?

I think all the best music we will ever hear has passed us though. We've blown music right open now that it is technically possible to make any sound with digital technology. I think we will soon hear people doing really interesting things with this, but we'll never hear anything quite as truly innovative.

someone will come up with something someday.





also, why does music need to be innovative? why can't it just be GOOD?

As long as I can completely lose myself in the moment, be it to with a song, an orgasm, an epiphany, or even just taking in a moment of the city, I'm entirely content.

These moments may get fewer and fewer as I get older but they're always worth it.

I know what you mean, atson, and I am one of those intelligent people.

oh jesus...
 

aaargghh im having a really shitty day where i dont know what to do with myself and uve just spoken exactly how i feel there... and i cant decide if its a good thing or if it just makes everything even more shit.
that emptiness makes me feel like we're all alone in the dark refusing to open our eyes/reach out see that everyone else is down there too but right THERE____ we're not that different its only fragments details of the things that move us and a failure to communicate from the heart
now i dont know what im saying
knowing all this doesnt help, its like going to the psychiatrist having someone tell you exactly what all yr problems are so its all cold staring u in the face but THEN WHAT???

adam, did you swallow a batreleaser for breakfast?

When I feel like this, I try to change just one thing about my routine, whatever that is, even if it's just sleeping later or getting up earlier. Changing even one little thing can make you feel like you've slipped out of the rut a little.

when i feel like that i just go to the record store and buy records that ive never heard of but they look interesting, be it the title or the art or whatever.

i have never been disappointed by a random dollar bin record.

i was just about to suggest this
especially if it's giving up drugs or alcohol. makes you feel like a fuckin champ once you get past any withdrawal symptoms

what about making a change by taking up drinking alcohol

Agree. A very good solution. I also get a similar kick from finding great clothes for cheap.

& I know this probably sounds pathetic but i can sometimes put myself in a different frame of mind by changing the arrangement of my furniture.

yeah me too but i have too many that i don't wear so i'm having friends over to scavenge through the shit i don't want and whatever's left i'm selling. someone's gonna be lookin' real fly real soon.

Let me know if you have anything in my sizes.

Anyway, I'm sorry I missed fuck it #1 & #2 but I look forward to forthcoming issues.