Funniest thing I read today.

And now we're talking about cute guys at school.

Doesn't African Queen sound like a drag name or something?

Remember, jocks are just as curious about fucking a guy.

No, I can't come up with one right now. But it is no Divine or RuPaul.

I hope so.

I went to prom with my friend, and I ended up in a limo with a bunch of football players. I could have creamed myself right there.

Funny. I hated jocks, and still do. I was more interested in guys who were literate, or had some artistic talent.

Yeah me too, but right now I'm not exactly looking for a life partner.

Yeah, me was strangers I met somewhere, it eludes me where I met them. Oh don't be in such a rush, it really isn't anything, and the first time is always messy in every way.

What the fuck did you just say?

Nothing, nothing ignore it. I am just tired, got off work.

Can do.

So...when you gonna tell your parents?

Never decided, I don't need to tell them. I would tell my brothers and sister, cause they are going to live longer. I just want to tell my siblings, so they now when I have partner, blah blah blah. Anyways, did you hear California's house legislature, passed a gay bill that would allow us queers to get married or civil unions I forgot.

Tell your family! You can do it. It is hard, but worth it.

We've been able to get civil unions for a while now, no?

I have no idea, I think so.

On my whole family, I don't think it matters on my parents, but my brothers it does. But I don't know if I should. Yesterday I almost came out to my sis, I said about some guy on tv. "To be honest that guy is not cute." She looked at me all weird. HAHAHA

Do it! Do it!

It feels good!

I should, just to dash their hopes, of me getting married with a nice woman.

Yeah, do you want your parents or siblings to think you are just a lonely person when they die?

Yeah, don't care what they think. Not much anyways. I know my siblings will find out later, but my parents never.

So what's stopping you? ;)

Finding the right way, to lessen the blow. But with my crazy family it is hard to find one.

Think about it: Anyway you do it you're telling them the same thing, and they'll feel the same way anyway you tell them.

So just tell them.

Should. But will wait. Cause I am not in the right emotional state to have such a thing to deal with.

I wouldn't be able to do it if I had been in a happy emotional state. I had to be in a shitty emotional place to be motivated to do it.

Stop making excuses!

HAHAHA. Maybe I am, actually I am. I guess this is the only thing I care what they think about me.

You gotta do it (at least once you are financially independent if not sooner), you won't regret it.

I think I will when I am financially independent. I know my family, and this will be a big deal for months.

I thought it would be too. But my parents just wanted to sweep it under the rug

Are they still werid out by this? I know my mother would say, something religious pertaining to it. My siblings will make fun of me, my father will not say anything but will be sad or feeling some emotion.

I guess so...? I really don't know. They haven't said a word.

My sister has been really good about it. I want to get her to talk to my parents to see where they are at, but it'd be a little unfair to put her in that awkward position.

I see, Yeah you should do it.

Hahaha. My mom doesn't want me to spend the night at my friends house. She thinks I'm gonna fuck him or something, but she won't say it. She asked "Does he have a girlfriend?"

It's fucking hilarious.

Wow, I spend the night over at my lover's house this past thursday. It was good.

I told another friend, but I did it on impulse online. He didn't believe me. I still am not sure if he believes me or not.

Disapearer (10:19:44 PM): Oh, you know how you act all gay and shit with that "I <3 you" crap. I thought I should let you know that I'm actually gay because when you do it, it sort of makes me uncomfortable. I think everyone thinks me putting my orientation to gay on myspace is a joke, but it isn't dude. I'm a fucking faggot.
Bakersucks101 (10:20:49 PM): your orientation is at gay?
Bakersucks101 (10:20:51 PM): i didnt know that
Disapearer (10:20:56 PM): Haha, wow.
Bakersucks101 (10:21:12 PM): hahaha
Bakersucks101 (10:21:18 PM): is it really?
Disapearer (10:21:20 PM): Yeah, dude. And it's true
Bakersucks101 (10:21:34 PM): i <3 you
Disapearer (10:22:01 PM): Haha, I knew you'd be cool with it, but I guess I just didn't tell you ever.
Bakersucks101 (10:22:16 PM): yeah dude
Bakersucks101 (10:22:17 PM): its cool
Bakersucks101 (10:22:21 PM): can we have sex?
Bakersucks101 (10:22:26 PM): are you attracted to me?
Disapearer (10:22:26 PM): No.
Disapearer (10:22:30 PM): Sorry
Bakersucks101 (10:22:36 PM): pity sex?
Disapearer (10:22:34 PM): Fine
Bakersucks101 (10:22:54 PM): yay!

That's how the initial conversation went. He thought I was kidding.

Disapearer (11:09:54 PM): Give me a reason why you won't believe me.
Bakersucks101 (11:10:05 PM): cuz your alex
Bakersucks101 (11:10:09 PM): and youd play a joke like this
Bakersucks101 (11:10:13 PM): just to call me dumb later

If he thinks you're winding him up, there's not a lot you can do about it. Sooner or later it'll suddenly click with him, "Shit, he really is gay".

Disapearer (11:10:15 PM): I'm gay, DUMB! Is this later enough?

haha, nic ;-)

Don't know if you told everyone already but good luck.

Great that you've done it early.
A friend of mine waited so long to come out to his friends and family that when he finally plucked up the courage, invited us all round for dinner, gave us all loads of wine to soften the blow and made his big announcement, was really disappointed when we all said "yeah, we know - have done for years! Is that all?!"